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NO ONE reads this so SCREW everything! GODDAMNIT HOW DARE THEY HOW DARE THEY HOW DARE THEY?!?!?!?!?!?

I AM BEYOND PISSED. LIKE I’M DROWNING IN ANGER AT THIS MOMENT I’M FURIOUS FURIOUS FURIOUS!

Forget them. LET THEM DO IT ALL ON THEIR OWN BECAUSE I’M NOT GONNA TAKE THIS CRAP. NEVER HAVE NEVER WILLL.

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Half of My Heart

“I was born in the arms of Imaginary Friends.” Half of My Heart- John Mayer ft. Taylor Swift.

Dude this song is beautifully composed and it is sung by two of my most epic favorite artists. I can’t keep Loving You. I love it!
It’s like the heart-ache of lost love embodied within a melody and lyrics. The video is so tear jerkingly sweet and melancholy.

Good Morning

Can’t wait for the day when I’ll wake up and find myself next to someone beloved. It’s sometimes hard to wait for the thing you want the most, then again what isn’t? Imagine, somebody who’ll make you coffee and toast with raspberry preserves. Someone who’ll laugh at you when you act snobby and who’ll hold you when you’re crying. That person who will tolerate your well meaning mother, your obnoxious brother, etc etc etc.

That person is far for now though. Or maybe not. Maybe he’s right next to me just waiting, for the day when i’m in just the right outfit and he’s got just the right words.

Golden days

bring back the golden days
when life was like a sitcom
and love was like bananas
you can find them at your local grocery store.

bring back the golden days
when the sun was bright
and tricycles litter
the front yard.

bring back the golden days
when ice cream trucks
were like Starbucks
around every street corner.

bring back the golden days
when front doors were unlocked
and dad drank fresh lemonade
after he mowed the lawn.

bring back the golden days
when you and i could be
and no one would care
and no one could stare.

School is Out!

I am pretty sorry to see my friends go but right now as i sit not worrying about homework or studying or tests or friends or grades, I am in a fantabulous mood. It’s been a pretty amazing year for me, and I don’t have a lot of regrets. I just feel like everything has happened so fast- one year closer to adulthood, one year closer to college and work and spouses and LIFE. Oh my gosh life is totally going by way too fast.

SCHOOL IS DONE!

I’m so excited to see the school year over, but I’m also so sad to lose friends- it doesn’t matter how much you promise to stay in touch, you lose friends. The way you lose hair, you lose weight. It’s easy to gain, easy to lose, hard to regain. How do you look forward to that?

Life, I guess

So my very close friend’s mother just passed three hours ago and I found out via facebook (I understand, media and technology replacing human contact and whatnot). I never met the woman (She lived in Jordan) but somehow i feel this sense of intense loss. It’s really vague, like five minutes after you hit your funny bone. It’s kind of a hollow sense- you can’t feel it but you knew that until recently it was there. I guess what I’m saying is that I miss my friend’s elderly mother from Amman. I don’t know why. and I hate that it’s 1 am and it isn’t acceptable for me to go over and cry because I miss this woman I’ve never met. My friend just lost her rock and I miss a hypothetical figure in my life. I wonder why? I don’t know if I’m incredibly selfish or just incredibly bizarre. (or both) All I know for sure right now is that I need to get off my lazy butt and make something warm for my friend so that I can go over tomorrow at  2 PM and offer to watch her 4 kids and let her grieve in peace. May that dear woman’s soul rest in peace. Insh’Allah.